GETTING READY TO GO

Lieing down with nick. Then prolly gettin up to do some last minute stuff or else just gettin up extra early to finish up and then head down allentown to pick up my babe for homecoming day. The kids n all of us made posters n put up balloons. Im so ecstatic! !

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Stacy Derr- Walker I cant even imagine this feeling. A truly amazing story :) You wont sleep a wink :)

February 3 at 11:33pm ·

Tina Crawford-Roof Kathy I am so happy for you both and Nick. You are blessed and I hope you guys have the greatest weekend together

February 4 at 5:57am

The night before Danny's return home, all the kids and I sat and made posters to put up for Danny. I made a big "Welcome HOME Danny" poster, and Nick made one that was kinda a collage of his great memories with Danny over the past 2 yrs. My daughter made one that said "welcome back sir"...in light of his always calling everyone sir and mam, and her daughter Sarah made her own creation as well. My son Chris and his girlfriend Tiffany made one that said "Happy to have you home Danny...we love you" It was all done up in glitter. I still have it hanging up 7mo after the accident. I will most likely leave it up. It is special to me, and I think a good reminder of what has transpired, for Danny...

Its 6am. I am just sitting here in silence with my thoughts and meditating on all that has happened. Entering into yet another unknown phase of this mysterious journey. Feeling tired n overwhelmed, but anxious and excited. Im at a loss for any words at all...pretty unusual for me.

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Dan Siracusa Glad to see that Danny is getting stronger, and moving down that road of recovery. You also, are a strong person for standing by his side, threw-out this ordeal.

February 4 at 6:42am ·

Robin Kinsey Keppley It'll be the BEST day that uve spent in a long time!! Good luck w everything;) will be thinking of all of u;)

February 4 at 6:42am 

Sherry Peletsky just talked to my mom for a few minutes. Cant wait to talk to you guys later on!!!!!

February 4 at 3:25pm

At the hospital we set about packing up the remainder of Danny's things into bags. Danny's mom and cousin Deanne were there...Deanne was driving us that day. We had no idea what to expect on the trip home. Danny seemed in good spirits. Several staff, from nursing and therapies, were in to see him. Harold was there that day, as was China, another aide, who used to push Danny to do for himself. She was an "I wont take no lazy excuses" type of woman.

CHINA,  DANNY AND HAROLD

I will always remember Deanne and how funny she was that day, because she works in purchasing for a nursing facility, and she went around the room saying, "you pay for all this stuff, so take it home with you" She stuffed all the supplies, bottles, tubes, soaps, oral things, gloves, elbow protectors, etc into bags. I really didn't have an attitude of "take it all with me"...but it was funny....and she was right anyway...haha. 

There was a lot of hugging and well-wishing as we left. Harold escorted us downstairs and to Deanne's minivan, and got us all settled in. Once Danny was inside and buckled in, I gave Harold the hugest big ole hug, and I lost it completely. There was so much I WANTED to say to him...so many feelings I wanted to express...but all I could do was sob and say "Thankyou so much"

I was so grateful. Danny walked out of the hospital by himself, just like I said he would...but was only hoping and praying he would. No matter what ever happened or will happen, I will be eternally grateful that a miracle took place when it came to his recovery. I wasn't aware at the time that such a long road still lie ahead of us...As Harold went back into the rehab, Danny told me that he wanted to say something to him still. Harold came back and hugged Danny....Danny said "Thankyou man...I really appreciate all you did"  It was like a flash of lucidity...it was cool...surreal....and wonderful......and so off we went....

PREPARATION FOR HOME

Total medical bill for st lukes hospital ICU and intermediate critical care(not including 1mo at Good Shepherd):$475,467.17. Having the man i love more than anything in the world spared and getting a second chance at life...PRICELESS!

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John V. Peletsky That hurts a little bit.

February 2 at 5:10am 

Kathleen Quinn-Farber Well john, guess they will need to accept what little we can pay each month. The itemized charges were utterly silly, but ill be eternally grateful to every emt, dr, nurse and specialist who pulled danny thru. Being a nurse myself, i know its not their fault that medical costs are outta control.

February 2 at 5:20am

Well, it was official...Danny would be going home on Friday Feb. 4th...exactly two months to the day since his accident. I received a bill from the trauma hospital of 475 thousand dollars. When I saw it I couldn't help it...I just laughed. It was so much money that it seemed surreal...There would be many many more bills to come as well.

Therapies were busy with Danny, making sure he could do the necessary things for his own ADLs (activities of daily living...dressing, grooming, toileting, getting around) Dressing was a tad difficult because his left shoulder was sore...and he was still incontinent a third of the time...but he was able to do what he had to in the bathroom with minimal assistance. Occupational therapy worked with him more than anything now...counting money, which he wasn't real good at, and looking at photos of potentially dangerous scenarios to see if he could recognize the hazard and/or solve it. He did about 50% well on most things. His confusion and distractibility were what hurt him.

It was awesome to see the changes in Danny. I remembered thinking about where I would put a hospital bed in my livingroom because I was afraid he'd be unable to climb the stairs well, and thinking about where I would put a bedside commode and how to make it private for him downstairs. In the last two weeks it was becomming evident these things wouldn't be needed. Danny's aunt gave me money for door alarms for the front and back door, because him wandering outside was a real fear of mine, and his cousin Sherry bought a shower bar which my daughter's boyfriend installed for us. I bought adult briefs for him, a urinal, and plastic liners to protect the bed at home.

Wednesday night I laid down with him at bedtime to help him get settled for the night, and fell asleep again. I awoke an hour later to find both of us absolutely soaking wet. LOL, Wendy was there that night, and gave me scrubs to wear home to Barb's.

I had many fears of the unknown, but was excited and anxious to get him home.

We had family training as well that week. Shannon and boyfriend Earl came, and Janna from occupational therapy took us all to the "apartment" model in the rehab to teach us all about safety, what to expect and how to help him. At home I cleaned really well, knowing I'd be pressed for time and busy with Danny once he got home.

Family training went well. Brought 4 bags of dannys stuff home. Tomorrow just in over discharge plans again, recheck all dr appt plans, collect prescriptions, and bring him home. I am just beyond words n so thankful to god n each n every one of you for your prayers and support! One more night without you baby. I love you more than anything!

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Melinda Young so happy for you

February 3 at 3:45pm ·

Denise Marie Startzel Praise God! Congratulations! Danny is a walking, breathing MIRACLE! I am so happy for you, Cathy! Now you'll know what tired it! BUT HAPPY!

February 3 at 3:52pm ·

Sherry Peletsky Cant wait to visit him some where other than a hospital setting! Get ready for that seafood party we talked about...I am sure it wont be long before he is ready for something other than pureed junk!!! I am getting out of work a little earlier than usual tomorrow afternoon so let me know if you need anything!

February 3 at 4:16pm 

Jeannine Ann Carroll Thats GREAT Kathy, I'm so happy for you.

February 3 at 4:18pm 

Joan Mermon Polk That's great news, Good Luck!!!!!

February 3 at 5:18pm 

Stacy Derr- Walker This whole journey was truly amazing and your love n dedication is a true tribute to Dannys will to pull thru this! So happy for you all!

February 3 at 11:12pm

THE LAST WEEKEND AT GOOD SHEPHERD

Wasnt gonna go to rehab today n instead get some stuff done here at home, but im going down cuz theres more to be discussed with therapies n care management, and things are moving along swiftly now. I wont get there on a weekday when main staffs there again til tuesday if i dont go today.

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Danny asked me 2 print pix of us 2 look at but library doesnt open til 12 so im off 2 make it 4 lunch with him. Mayb computers at rehab have a printer. Yesterday when puttin cream on his itchy knees i made eyes at him n he asked if i was tryin 2 turn him on n i said yea. He said you did that a long time ago so u dont even have 2 do that shit. Aw how sweet my babe is :-)

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On our way to barbs. She is supposed to not be alone tonight cuz of some pretty serious tooth extractions. Tomorrow nick goes with his dad overnight and i spend the wknd with the sweetest guy god ever created. Homecoming is a wk away. Next wk some appts 4 him, and family training 4 us on wed.

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We had quite a spell of bad weather that last week of January...one ice or snow storm after another. Nick went to spend the wknd with his dad and I spent the wknd between Barb's and the rehab. Danny was getting just a little better at a time every day...small things others wouldn't really notice, were evident to me sometimes. He could be restless, but he was also becomming less anxious...more calm and patient. Occasionally he would take an interest in some grooming. I helped him shave and he actually did well, but only took a trim off his quickly growing beard. It was enough to spiff him up a bit though. He didn't have the attention span to stick with any activity for more than a few minutes, but it was still an improvement.

all shaved and showered

He enjoyed looking at pictures...of Nick and I as well as his family. One of the first things we had all done after the accident, was to bring in lots of pictures and put them up all around where he could see them. On Saturday I printed a bunch and made them into a little booklet. He paged through it all week, noting what he remembered about them. 

One subject we had avoided was his dad. None of us had told him his dad passed away in 2006. He looked at his picture a few times, but didn't ask...and we didn't tell. It just didn't seem like the time.

I was awake pretty near all the time that wknd, at the rehab all day, walking with Danny and helping him do things, and at Barb's up late on the computer. Even when I did lie down to sleep, my mind was just too busy to let rest come. Saturday the staff and I were trying for hours to get Danny to lie down for the night. He was utterly exhausted, and his gait was wobbly. I laid in his bed and George, one of the aides would convince him to come lie down with me, but after a short rest of ten minutes at most, he would get up again. I heard George telling him he would help him wash up and get ready for bed, and I don't remember anything else for a time because I ended up falling asleep. I partially awoke to feel Danny being tucked into bed with me. I wrapped my arm over him, put my head on his chest and fell asleep again. Around 1am I awoke. Danny was sound asleep. I snuck out of his bed and got ready to go. When the nurse saw me leaving she said..."Oh, I was gonna leave you there. His roommate is gone anyway. It would have been ok." I decided to go on home. In retrospect I don't know why I didn't just stay. I guess it just felt odd at the time...

How precious. I went to sleep n danny got washed up n came to bed. They said i could have stayed n slept with him since his roommate is gone now, but i left my sleeping babe n am on my way back to barbs. So hard to leave. But so cool that they would have let me stay.

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YAY! FINALLY, "YES DANNY, YOU CAN HAVE A DRINK!!"

Danny aced his swallow test! What a sight him walking back onto the unit wearing a huge smile n the 2 speech girls giving thumbs up! Nurses clapped n cheered! I of course could barely hide my tears. He can have regular liquids n puree foods! He got a big choc milkshake right away! 

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Thursday afternoon speech took Danny off the unit once again to attempt the swallow study. He was still having the same trouble sitting still, and I didn't expect the test to be a success. I told him before he left the floor how important it was to try as hard as he possibly could to sit still for the test. A half hour later, here comes Danny walking with the two speech therapists, all three with big smiles on their faces! "HE ACED IT!!" one of the therapists said, waving a fist happily in the air. The nurses and aides clapped their hands and I of course was in tears. It was so emotional for me...such a massive relief after all the weeks denying Danny even sips of water when he felt he was dying of thirst. One of the therapists went straight away and came back with a huge chocolate milkshake for Danny. It was such a pleasure watching him drink it. He sucked it down holding it in one hand, while making calls to more family with the great knews with the other.

Danny got his puree supper tray. What a trip...he was so comical eating n commenting on tastes n doing funny kinda confused things with the items on the tray. The tube feeds are suspended as well! Today was a glorious day. Its possible now that danny may be coming home in abt a week! 

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At supper time his puree food tray came. FINALLY, he could sit in the dining room and eat with everyone, where before I always tried to steer him away from that area at mealtime, pitying him for not being allowed food. Confused, he was a riot to watch eat. He poured juice into his tea, dipped mashed potatoes into his pudding, opened all the packs of condiments. He kept getting up from the table and being funny with all of us. His eating was kind of sloppy, as though he could not judge how much food to put on a spoon at once. All n all it was a day to celebrate, especially since I was told the tube feedings would be stopping now!! His Aunt Judy wrote the following entry on her Facebook the following morning....

Danny

by Judy Peletsky on Friday, January 28, 2011 at 8:20am

Oh what a wonderful visit with Danny at the rehab center .We got to see him have his first drink, a milk shake, and also his first meal since his accident on December 4th. He laughed with us, smiled all day, asked a lot of questions about the accident and wanted to know how I knew the answers to most of them. He wanted me to say a few bad words and when I told him no he said I won't let you get in trouble. He told me he liked my sweatshirt, then in a few hours told me it was ugly, it's not ugly it had a sail boat on the front. When we went to leave he told us no we had to stay, so we did for about another hour then when we did go he needed to know when we would be back, and in a day or two was not a good enough answer he needed to know the day. I love him so much! What a great young man he is.


Kathleen Quinn-Farber I am so glad you and Uncle Jack got to see that wonderful moment when he was told he passed the swallow study and could eat and drink. It was an evening im sure we will never forget!! God I just love him so much and thank God all the time for giving him a second chance at life!!!! Love you

January 31 at 12:41am

 

PERFECTING SKILLS

Danny went up n down practice steps for me, and then 2 flights of stairs today, and did great. He is practicing stepping up and down curbs, and stepping over obstacles. Tomorrow phone calls again, and some organizing in the house. Up to home depot 2 shop 4 railing 4 opposite side of stairway and in the shower. 

Facebook on January 25 at 8:04pm

Despite 7 missed days due to the accident, being upset for danny, and the chaos of the past 7 1/2 wks, nick was once again only 4 points from straight A's! I am so proud of the kid he has become over the past 2yrs. Danny, you really instilled the desire in nick 2 do his best, have a good attitude abt n care abt his education. IlyD! 

Facebook on January 25 at 8:32pm

Oh my, so many phone calls 2 make, forms 2 fill out, n information 2 organize. I need 2 spend the day sorting thru this paper trail n making lists. I can feel my attention deficit disorder most at these times. Danny would say 2 relax, breathe, pay attention, go one step at a time. Im listening hunny, n we will get thru all this together one step at a time. 

Facebook on January 26 at 11:55am

Almost midnight, still up n finishing wash n odds n ends. Still tons 2 do but not tonight. Up to get nick 2 school then down 2 see danny. The nurse told me when i called tonight that he walked less n rested in his bed more! 

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IMPULSIVITY and ANXIETY

Danny was unable to stay seated on the transport van n so they couldn take him 2 his appt. He was so full of anxiety n a mess. Dont know when they will reschedule. He needs 2 b able 2 sit still 4 a swallow study 2 n not sure he can. Hang tough hun. This too shall pass! 

Facebook on January 24 at 5:17pm

On my way to the rehab. Care manager meeting 2day when she has a few moments. Time 2 start getting solid plans in place. 

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Red tape when it comes to the state n its programs. We are looking@abt 2wks til discharge n danny will need constant supervision 4 sum time. Therapies will be 3x/wk for 4hrs here@good shepherd, plus follow ups here n there. My main worry? How will i take him anywhere w/o him stepping out of the car? Im praying he overcomes the impulsivity hes having n improves his safety awareness. 

Facebook on January 25 at 11:47am

Danny was improved with his ability to stay still much of the time, but being seatbelted into a wheelchair for transport to the bone doctor proved to be a disaster. Wendy, one of the aides was to accompany us on the van. She was a very calm, soothing and patient person. Danny did fine being wheeled out of the facility. Sometimes it was hard to remember that he was so very confused, and I was sorta expecting a happy comment about getting outside when we left the unit. Out front the van awaited, the wheelchair was lifted in, and the driver secured several chain-like straps to various parts of the chair. Then it started. Danny undid his seatbelt and stood up in tears. "Please, I just have to stand for a moment" We allowed him to, since this was common behavior for him all the time...frequent breaks to stand. But each time we redid the belt, off it came again. Danny's anxiousness escalated to the point where he was crying and shaking...begging to be allowed to stand. Then he would apologize profusely and promise to stay seated, only to repeat the process all over again in 30 seconds. Wendy took him off the bus for a break, then brought him on again. Same thing. The driver was telling us he could not move the van or take Danny to the appointment because he was unsafe. We finally took him off and back to the unit. It was very disappointing as we were hoping the bone doctor would remove the brace that day so we could stop battling with Danny all the time about leaving it on.

The need to keep standing was interfering with speech therapy clearing him for drinks and food as well, because they needed to do a swallow study, and Danny would have to sit very still and for a good 15-20 minutes. They had attempted it twice so far and it just wasn't working out. Danny was still begging for drinks and it was so difficult to deal with that.

The care manager met with me to start setting solid plans in place for a discharge to take place in two weeks. She set me up with the therapies that would take place three times a week, and also all initial follow-up doctor appointments were made.

My main worry was Danny's impulsivity and lack of safety awareness. I began to worry about how I would be able to transport him anywhere in a vehicle by myself.

A LOVE POEM...

A Love Poem...

by Kathleen Quinn-Farber 

Monday, January 24, 2011 at 1:17am

I love the way my head comes to the point to softly rest,
on the part of you benieth your neck and lightly on your chest.
I love the way your whiskers tickle gently on my face
and brush with tenderness on every soft and tender place.
I love the way I tremble when you touch me with your hands,
that sweet forbidden passion only lovers understand.
I love the way you smile at me and court me with your eyes
the trust and honesty that makes me know there are no lies
I love to feel your warm breath all across my quivering skin
when I feel the urge to hold you,love you, deeply let you in.
I love our silly jokes and sayings, all our funny words
that help me just by recall when my day's become absurd
I love the most the feeling of your arms encircling me
protecting and reviving now the woman I can be
and when you lay me down so soft, and like a delicate rose
you make me part of you and you of me, from head to toes
I love the feelings that I get whenever you are near
you take away my anger and my bitterness and fear
replacing all that has been broke with something very new
Its why I love all pieces of the thing called me and you.
-Kathleen M. Quinn-Farber

I love and miss you so Danny. I dream of being together again at home...of being close. 
And its so real, 
that when I lie my hand on my tummy,
its your hand that I feel....
when I go to sleep, 
it is your eyes that are closing.  
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