YOUR KALEIDOSCOPE

What I look at,
what I see,
its not you anyway.
why does it twist a knife?
I guess love is weird
that way.
You have no clue;
I can't explain;
you will never be who you were...
its all gone.
you live in the past,
a fantasy;
you dont see who loved you...
who laid down their life
for you.
You see things through
a kaleidoscope...
pieces of real amongst a sea
of false;
I see it through
a prism
divided into slices of reality...
the only common thread
being our love
but lost forever.....

-K.M.Q.Farber 5/16/13 

There is and always will be an empty space in my heart where I used to think you would always be until we grew old just like we always talked about. WE knew we would meet the challenges around us and the oneness we felt because we were soul-mates could and would carry us thru any challenge...then came brain injury :-( and it tore us apart, it tore yours and my families apart, it ruined everything. Altho I have gone on and am indeed on a new and happy journey, life will never be the same because I was so comforted knowing we would always face everything together...but you are there and I am here, and things are too insane to ever go back. Your voicemail this AM asked what time we are meeting today for Easter to do something with Nick and have dinner, and here I sit crying, cuz in your mind you don't even realize its been a year since the final break, and 9 mo. since I've been close enough to hold you... :'-(