Its Not My Time....

I have a musician friend who was in a horrible wreck a couple years back, and wasn't expected to pull through. He had MANY more physical injuries, and also a milder brain injury. He recommended Good Shepherd Rehab to me when I told him about Danny. The rehab there worked miracles with him and he is now back on stage playing.

He had a song that he loved that kinda became a sort of "theme song", and became so with me also, because there were just so many similarities between Danny and the message the lyricist was conveying. The video only adds even more depth and meaning to the song....
click the link, watch n listen...

To Dannys family...you HAVE to watch this video and pay close attention to the video as well as the words. The guy in this video has a premonition, just like I was telling yous Danny always did abt hearing the glass and metal crunch and feeling the blow to his head. Also in the words, its just awesome and fits to a T. "Its not my time. I got a will in me" and "Maybe theres more than you believe." Maybe theres more than Danny believes there is...

3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time

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Its Not My Time

Facebook on Sunday, December 19, 2010 at 2:30pm

Looking back at the beginning of this

And how life was

Just you and me and love and all of our friends

Living life like an ocean

Now the current's slowly pulling me down

It's getting harder to breathe

It won't be too long and I'll be going under

Can you save me from this?

'Cause it's not my time,

I'm not going

There's a fear in me

It's not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Oh, I won't go

I look ahead to all the plans that we made

And the dreams that we had

I'm in a world that tries to take 'em away

Oh, but I'm taking them back

'Cause all this time I've just been to blind to understand

What should matter to me

My friend, this life we live

Is not what we have, it's what we believe

And it's not my time

I'm not going

There's a fear in me

It's not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

But It's not my time

I'm not going

There's a will in me

And now I know that

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Oh, but I won't go

I won't go

There might be more than you believe

(There might be more than you believe)

There might be more than you can see

But it's not my time

I'm not going

There's a fear in me

It's not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

But it's not my time

I'm not going

There's a will in me

Now it's gonna show

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Ohoho

There might be more than you believe

(There might be more than you believe)

There might be more than you can see

I won't go

I know I won't go down

FILLING WITH LIFE ON SATURDAY

Woke up with itchy stuffy nose, scratchy throat, n fever. Had to call in work so there goes my last pay before christmas n the worst part is i gotta stay away from danny now. I hope i can fight this off by tuesday or wed. :-( and i hope he knows im coming asap. IlyD

Facebook on December 19, 2010 at 7:32am

Sunday morning at Barb's I awoke with a cold. I had chills n fever and stuffiness. Was starting a cough too. I couldn't go to work because I was working with sick babies, and I couldn't go in to see Danny either. It would be torture staying away I knew...

I wrote a note on Facebook telling all about our wonderful Saturday and Danny's growing movements and activities...

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
-Author Unknown

Facebook on December 19, 2010 at 11:56am

yesterday...

by Kathleen Quinn-Farber on Sunday, December 19, 2010 at 12:37pm

Yesterday was a wonderful day, for myself, and for Danny. And for his family the past two days also. For three hrs we held hands and he tried every trick in the book to get his hand down to that catheter to yank it out. It was funny but inspiring cuz I could tell he was working toward a task he wanted to accomplish. Those sweet eyes opened alot, and showed emotion. We always hold hands this certain way, with our fingers intertwined, and Dannys have to be a certain way in mine for it to be comfortable for him...I guess one of his ocd things a bit. Well, He repeatedly spread his fingers to hold my hand that way, and twice I tried to change the order of our fingers, and he purposely moved his so they went the way we always do it. That told me alot. I put his glasses on and he reached up to his face in what I thought was a gesture to adjust them, but he looked like he was holding a fake spoon, and sure enough, he was holding his mouth open as if to wait for the food to go in. lol. And I let him feel all around his head, and then he frowned. I told him his head is ok, but he had a bad bump to it and has been asleep for 2 weeks. He then slowly made an "ok" sign with his hand. Its sad that his wrists must be restrained unless someone is holding his hands, but if they werent, within 5min that catheter, vent, IV, BP cuff.....EVERYTHING would be ripped out and thrown on the floor! haha. Twice when I stopped his hand from grabbing that stuff, he made a fist at me, and once gave me the middle finger I think. He never uses that gesture so that was weird. But tears rolled out a few times when I talked abt certain things. And they had him sitting outta bed in a chair even. He's on his way back to us. I am so high...so happy, and so grateful for all the prayers continuing. The thought of losing him was a nightmare. I couldnt understand why after all these years of searching...me for true love, and he for someone who loved him enough to love ALL of him and his countless quirks...that we could be just snatched away from eachother. He has much to contemplate when he's feeling better...abt life, family bonds, the importance of making sure you dont stray off the right path.

I posted a picture that says "Sometimes letting go is the only way to know you are meant to hold on" I kinda came to that resolution several days ago when things looked darkest. I sorta "let go" in a way...I mean not really, and not that I wanted to, but I began to pray just for Gods will for Danny to be done, and not just what I and his family wanted. Thats when he perked up...and I knew we were meant to hold on...

Nancy Erdman Latsha

i have been praying for danny everyday since i found out and i will continue to pray for him :)
i have been in your shoes and i know how you feel when i read this it sounded so much like craig lol but thats good cuz you know he is fighting h...is way back to you~~he aint giving up :) just rem to keep taking care of yourself also!! your kids and grandbaby needs you too :) if you need to talk,cry vent or anything just shoot me a line i will be hear to listen and a shoulder to lean on~~keep the faith sweetie he has come along way so far and will continue to do so :)

December 19, 2010 at 12:49pm 

 

Sarah Hottenstein that's sooo joyful to hear but yet in some sense sad too. kathy you are such a strong woman and you are blessed to sooo many blessings in your family. keep up the great work and keep both your spirits up and most of all keep believing. it's working i think for the both of you. we are all witnessing a miracle here and i love to hear the progress that he has made.

December 19, 2010 at 2:43pm ·

Kathleen Quinn-Farber thanx...yes it is a miracle. To me its all i will ever ask for the rest of my life i think. We all know tho, life just keeps up the curve balls, but I think ive dodged enough of them now...lol

December 19, 2010 at 2:47pm ·

Deanne Peletsky Colna The past few days have been wonderful. It is great just knowing he can hear us and is comprehending what we r saying! things r starting to look up ... day by day.

December 19, 2010 at 4:40pm 

Stacy Derr- Walker he is fighting to get home to you all too! this will make your lives even STRONGER then before! thanks for the updates Kath! believe!!!

December 19, 2010 at 6:10pm

Waiting to Wake

Waiting to wake

by Kathleen Quinn-Farber 

Facebook on Sunday, December 19, 2010 at 9:55pm

there you lie,

 in the center of a whirlpool, 

of what was yesterday; now; 

what is tomorrow. 

You know not our confusion, 

nor us...yours. 

Perhaps not knowing where you might end, 

or where you should begin.

Not knowing if you understand. 

Not knowing if you remember or what you forget. 

While we have all waited with baited breath for a flicker of light, 

for you to let us know somehow you are with us, 

you have been clawing and fighting your way back from deaths grip, 

our prayers somehow winning our will for you, 

for what we want, 

who we love so much, 

to be delivered and returned to us. 

The bed is cold and empty. 

Where we have lain arm in arm and shared our dark secrets, 

it is just a surface to lie down my head now. 

My shoulders are chilly. 

You are not whispering, asking if im cold, 

and pulling me closer while tucking covers around my chin. 

You are not here, chattering on about some silly subject, 

me begging you to shush for the night 

while putting you to sleep with soft strokes up and down your back. 

The joy of christmas, is close now, 

but still like the distant barking of dogs. 

There is half of me there with you, 

in that bed and gone from here. 

Wishing i could be fighting side by side with you, 

making it easier, 

lessening your pain, 

and bringing you back home.